Brittanylyn13's Journals

Memento Mori

Memento Mori.

Calling m.newyork.

"Maybe friendships arenâ�™t meant to be saved, maybe weâ�™re meant to spend a certain part of our lives with certain people then move on. But if thatâ�™s so, how come the move on part hasnâ�™t come yet?"

I dont even know if you remember saying that. But I have it written on a cue card beside my bed.
That little piece of paper has brought me more hope then anything probably ever could.
I love you, and I miss you.

125 questions. Cuase Im that freaking bored.

1) Are you really ready for 125 questions?
Ready as I'll ever be.

2) Was your last real relationship a mistake?
No. No regrets, no mistakes.

3) Do you believe in God?
I do.

4) Who did you last say "I love you" to?
Teagan, I believe.

5) Do you regret it?
Of crouse not! I love her more then anything!

6) Have you ever been depressed?
Here and there.

7) Have a best friend?
tons. Its fantastic.

8) Are you a boy or a girl?
girl, thankyouverymuch.

9) What is your relationship status?
Taken by the lovliest.

10) How do you want to die?
PEacefully, knowing I've led a full and joyus life.

11) What did you last eat?
Mcdonalds fries.

12) Play any sports?
Baseball soccer hockey football lacrosse rugby volleyball badminton gymnastics borden ball kickball dodgeball tennis cross country etc. etc.

13) Do you bite your nails ?
mmmm....not really. I might chew on them when I'm thinking.

14) When was your last physical fight?
Ugh, I had a shovefight with arin and erin today :P

15) Do you have an attitude?
Definantly.

16) Do you like someone?
I do :)

17) What is your real name?
Brittany Lyn Cooper.

19) Are you gonna get high later?
Not tonight.

20) Do you hate anyone at the moment?
There is only one person in the entire world that I will always hate.

21) Do you miss someone?
I miss alot of people. Half my friends are all over the freaking world.

22) Twirl or cut your spaghetti?
Twirl.

23) Do you tan a lot?
No. I'm pale as ever.

24) Have any pets?
LE PUPPY<333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333

25) How exactly are you feeling?
Extremly happy.

26) Ever eaten food in a car while someone or yourself is driving?
duh.

27) Ever made out in the bathroom?
no, actually.
I do have a friend that got pregnant in a bathroom, however. True story.

28) Would you take any of your exes back?
One of them, but we're pretty much best buddies right now, so.

29) Are you scared of spiders?
HOLYFUCKINGSHITYOUDONOTEVEN KNOW!

30) Would you go back in time if you were given the chance?
negative.
No regrets baybayyyyy.

31) Do you regret anything from your past?
See above.

32) What are your plans for this weekend?
possibly hanging out with the boyfraaaand.

33) Do you want to have kids?
One day.

34) Did you ever kiss someone whose name starts with a C, E and D?
Yessir.

35) Do you type fast?
I do.

36) Do you have piercings? How many?
My ears. Industrial bar soon :D

37) Want any more?
Nose, tounge, labret, teardrop, bellybutton, septum, web.

38) Can you spell well?
no.

39) Do you miss anyone from your past?
yeah.

40) What are you craving right now?
nada. A hug, perhaps, from coby. Cause his hugs are fucking LEGENDARY. Seriously. Cuddle him.

41) Ever been to a bonfire party ?
yeahhhhh.

43) Have you ever been on a horse?
yeah, and it nearly freaking killed me!.

44) Kissed someone in a pick up truck?
Do I look like Taylor Swift to you?
I'm an urban bitch, dude. I make out in nightclubs with guys that wear more makeup then me. ;)

45) Have you ever broken someone's heart?
yeah, and I STILL feel bad about it.

46) Have you ever been cheated on?
shut up.

47) Have you made a boyfriend/girlfriend cry?
I made him go for icecream....

49) Would you live with someone without marrying them?
yup.

50) What should you be doing ?
rehersing, for sure.

51) What's irritating you right now?
Pain in my neck (Literally) and this stupid mofo at school.

52) Have you ever liked someone?
Are you stupid?

53) Does somebody love you?
yeah :D

54) What is your favorite color ?
Red.

55) Have you ever changed clothes in a vehicle?
mhm. Many times.

57) Do you have trust issues?
sometimes.

59) Have you ever shaved in the kitchen sink?
Ive witnessed this event, but Ive never had to go that low.

60) Do you have a good relationship with your parents?
meh. sometimes.

62) Do you believe your most recent ex thinks about you?
I do. He tells me all the time.

63) Who was the last person you cried in front of?
I dont cry. Sorry.

64) Do you give out second chances too easily?
definantly.

65) Is it easier to forgive or forget?
neither.

66) Is this year the best year of your life?
who knows? It isnt over yet!

67) What was your child hood nickname?
Coop, cooper, megamidget, little brittle, might midget, itty britty

68) Have you ever walked outside completely naked?
Nearly... ;)

69) Do you think you're a good person?
I think Im pretty okay sometimes.

70) Do you believe everything happens for a reason?
yes.

71) What is the last thing you did before you went to bed last night ?
sneezed for like 10 minutes. It exhausted me.

73) What is bothering you?
this pain in my neck.

74) Do you like to be tickled?
I do.

75) Do you play the Wii?
YEAH! its so fun!

76) Are you listening to music right now?
I am.

77) Do you like Chinese food?
LOVE is more like it.

78) Do you know your fathers birthday?
July 18th.

79) Are you afraid of the dark?
not usually. Unless Im tripping out because SOMEBODY decides to chase me through the woods whilst I was piss drunk.

81) Are you mean?
sure, everybody is sometimes.

82) Can you keep white shoes clean?
ffor like a week. Its hard when your city is pretty much made out of slush 6 months out of the year.

83) Have you noticed this survey stopped getting personal?
no?

84) Do you believe in true love?
No.

85) Are you proud of the person you've become?
Yes.

88) Do you like the outside?
I do.

89) Are you currently bored?
naww.

90) Do you wanna get married?
one day .

91) Is it cute when a boy/girl calls you babe?
yes (L)

92) Are you hungry?
Nope, happily full.

93) Do you have a bank account?
No.

94) What makes you happy?
life.

95) Would you change your name?
no.

96) Ever been to Alaska?
nope.

98) Do you watch the news?
daily.

99) What' s your zodiac sign?
Leo. Rawr.

100) Do you like Subway?
YES!

101) Would it be hard to kiss the last person you kissed?
No, Id love to.

102) Your best friend of the opposite sex likes you, what do you do?
Is he attractive?

103) Do you talk like your friends?
no, I speak in shakespearian mixed with ghetto, and french,
Example: "Yo homes, come hither pour un moment,"
Seriously. I have said that exact phrase before.

105) Have you ever seen someone you knew & purposely avoided them?
indeed.

106) Do you have a friend of the opposite sex who you can act your complete self around?
all of them. I dont change for people.

107) Who is the last guy you talked to?
My father :)

108) where's the question ? ..

109) Do you go to church?
on christmas eve sometimes.

110)what's going on between you and your best friend?
We're a little distant, to be honest.

111) Who's the last person you had a deep conversation with?
shit, most of my friends are guys and avoid such things. Hm.... maybe my sister?

113) Do you enjoy piercings & tattoos?
I freaking LOVE THEMMMMMMMMM :D:D:D

114) What do you wear more: jeans, sweats, pants, or shorts?
jeans/sweats

115) You're a Sharpie marker, what color are you?
Red or lime green.

116) Where do you go if you are butt naked and locked out of your house?
Into my swimming pool.

117) Do you prefer to shower at night or in the morning?
At night. Its a wind down..

118) Have you ever said you'd never love again?
Maybe in so few words.

119) Do you want to please everyone?
I strive for perfection in certain areas, yes.

120) Have you heard a song that reminds you of someone today?
Yeah.

121) Has someone ever made you a promise & broken it?
DUH.
People suck.

122) Are you alone?
Nope! My puppy is here :)

123) Do you have any older siblings?
2

124) Did you speak to your father today?
Yeah.

125) How many months until your birthday?
6!

The sparrow ate the stopwatch.

Holy fuck. It's been a while.

I haven't posted or commented anything in at least two months, if not more. You guys have gotten me through way too much to be treated that way. I apologize.

Due to certain relationships falling apart, I've been avoiding the keyboard, preferring to semi-vent my pent-up insanity surrounded by the creature comforts of the cave I call my bedroom. All whilst reading acid-inspired indie novels and getting my heart broken by a guy who completely gives a new definition of motherfuckingcocksuckingstupidlittleprick.

Ahh, teenaged angst.

I would like to take this short interval of time to say the following: Merry christmas, Happy new year, Happy birthday, Feel better, I'm here for you, and what a lovely photo.

There. Everything that should've been said, and everything I usually say.
To cut to the chase: I've been wrapping my head around things and settling in my skin a little better. I wont promise you that I'll be around more often, because I wont. I can almost garuntee I'll be going AWOL again soon. Real life is just too fucked up to spend precious time with my ass in an uncomfortable fake leather chair staring into a screen. I do want you all to know however, that I think about many of you every day.
So please, contact me! I have a new email. brittanylyn@live.ca
Add me on msn, dorp me a line. Add me on facebook, because I manage to get on facebook daily. Brittany Lyn Cooper, search me up. Just send me a message letting me know who you are so I dont accidentally decline your friend request!

Keep up the good work, ladies and gentlemen.
I am still here. I am still listening. And I'm definantly still watching.

I've never meant anything more.

It's hard to care when you're not there.
And I realize now, you never have been.
Sure, it's seemed like it.
But your presence doesn't mean shit anymore.
All last night was spent on others trying to convince me that you aren't my fault.
But I conitnue to be your casualty.
And thats the way you want it.
I've always been the one left holding the bags.
I've covered all that I can.
I'm spread to thin to cover you anymore.
Paper thin skin, bright blue veins.
Mix with oxygen at will.
Not me. Not anymore.
I have played the heroine in every story you've ever told.
But you still made me feel like the villian, simply because you could.
Not anymore.
I'm taking a stand.
I refuse to fall to you or for you ever again.
I know I haven't always been perfect. I know I could've been better.
But the thing is, you couldn't have been worse.
How many phonecalls went unanswered, how many emails left to rot?
It's disgusting that you left our future to technology.
And maybe I should take some blame this time.
But I'm going to be selfish, and say no.
I refuse to let this fall on my shoulders.
Maybe I wasnt always there either.
But at least I pretended to give a shit.
You lied.
Everytime you said I love you, you lied.
Because you didn't. You couldn't have.
Because if you did, it wouldn't be like this now.
I tried to tell you so many times how I was feeling.
But you'd interrupt with what was wrong on your end.
So I forgot about myself and listened.
After a while, I'll admit I stopped caring sometimes.
But I still tried.
You just gave up.
My turn.
Now I'm giving up.
I won't let myself be treated like this anymore.
I'd like to shake the hand of thr person who told it to you straight.
I agree with every word they said.
I wish I had written it myself.
I really hope you read this.
Because maybe, you'll get it for once.
I'd say good luck in the future, but you don't have one.
So instead I'll say what I've wanted to say for a long, long time.
Fuck off.

Do the monster mash!

trenchcoat and blue eyes
Scuffed shoes and grey skies
I want something more.

Halloween was awesome. Hung out until 4 in the a.m. in my best friend's basement with my new favourite people. Watched bad horror movies that were more about shower sex and how-many-ways-can-you-cut-off-a-persons-head then anything else. The trick-or-treaters that actually came to the door were adorable. Halloween is a dying art.
I went as Kat Von D and I cant get these stupid stick-on tattoos to come off. Le sigh.
Pictures and video soon :)

I haz a twitter. http://twitter.com/brittanylyn

"Normaolity is conformity and conformity SUCKS."
Yesh, well. I conformed.
Follow me. http://twitter.com/brittanylyn
And tell my what yours is too so I can sta- I mean, follow, you too :)

"What kind of hate is THAT?" "The kind thats going to rule the eastern WORLD."

I have the stupidest friends ever :)

Welcome to Canada BITCH!

Someone explain to me the micro mini skirt-and-Uggs ensemble I saw today.
IT WAS 1 DEGREES (Celsius, 34 in Farenheight for you americanos)
What. The. Hell.
There's Obsession. There's vanity. And then there's just fucking stupidity.
ONE, you look like a total douche in Uggs and a mini skirt. If it's cold enough for Uggs, its too damn cold for a mini skirt, you retard.
TWO, Uggs are made as WINTER BOOTS. Yes, I know they are made in Australia, but they are made to keep your feet warm. Do not pair them with something that barely covers your ass. Kthx :)
THREE, You look like an idiot. I mean really. Just dont do it.
and FOUR, Ugg(lies) are made of sheep(ies)
I was in jeans, a long sleeve, a trench coat, mittens, and a hat, and I was cold. so you can't tell me it wasnt cold outside. IT SNOWED yesterday for God's sake.
ITS TIME TO PUT AWAY THE MINI SKIRT.
Your ass will look just as big in jeans, I promise :)

I hate people. :)

"Doctor oh doctor we've got an emergency."

Patient: Brittany Lyn Cooper
D.O.B July 26th 1993
Fainted on Friday October 19th at 10:00 AM.
-Had eaten breakfeast (Half of a "Costco" muffin, glass of milk)
-Describes feeling dizzy and naseua beforehand
-Has been having trouble sleeping
-Vegeterian 3 years
-Lower then normal blood pressure

Diagnosis:

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1.	Pathology. a quantitative deficiency of the hemoglobin, often accompanied by a reduced number of red blood cells and causing pallor, weakness, and breathlessness.

2.	a lack of power, vigor, vitality, or colorfulness: His wring suffers from anemia.

a-ne-mi-a
n. A pathological deficiency in the oxygen-carrying component of the blood, measured in unit volume concentrations of hemoglobin, red blood cell volume, or red blood cell number.

[New Latin, from Greek anaimiÄ : an-, without; see a-¹ + haima, blood.]

Low blood pressure.
Insufficient Iron intake/absorbtion

Vitamins. Bloodtests. Pills. Dietary restrictions. Dietary dictations. More bloodtests. ECG exams. More Bloodtests.
Sweet.